The power of plants .


When I mention I’m trying to go Vegan , the looks and comments I get are hilarious . 


I’m not doing it because it’s a trend and I’m not turning into ‘one of those people’ either . 


My body has been failing me for years . 

I’ve been told it’s because I’m veggie and need to eat meat ? 


Through research I have proven this is bull ! 

Your body doesn’t need meat at all . We aren’t meat eaters . 

Our diet should consist of plant based foods only . 

But I’m not that person who will dictate to you what you should eat . At the end of the day , I’m only worried about my body and the toxins I put in to it . 


I do blame medications and foods for my illnesses . 

Considering I have so many allergies along with many other things .  

I don’t want to be that person who just accepts everything anymore . I want to know the facts . 


For example , this is something very small . But I’ve been getting really bad eczema flare ups under my arms . I’ve even got patches under my arms which are dark and look awful . When I looked at what was in my deodorant , which I just picked up off the shelf 2 months ago . I found there is geletine in it …. Geletine !!!! Animal ingredients which shouldn’t be in a bloody roll on ?! 

Why would I want to roll dead animals on my pits ? Seriously ? Rotting animal . Makes me feel sick . 

Anyways , I’ve stopped using it and I’m now getting better . 

Not to mention all the other shocking ingredients . But I think that’s for another time ….


I’ve also changed from cows milk , which has no positive effect on us whats so ever , to almond milk . 


My bloating has gone down . 

I was told by my gastro that he’s doubtful that I have any allergies and my weight is all due to my over eating *of 800 calories a day* .

I think this may prove otherwise ?


I’m also drinking lemon water instead of squash . Again , that has helped . Less sugar , more plants / fruit . Natural πŸ™‚ 


Simple little things . 


I haven’t touched meat since I was 13 , so going vegan shouldn’t be too hard for me . 


I have stopped all medications and taken on natural plant extracts for pain relief , anxiety and depression and my UC . 


Well . What a difference ! 


I have zero side effects .


None . 


Nada ! 


Zip .



I am more or less pain free . 

Except for the odd ache . 

Which , is more than prescribed meds have ever done for me . 

(I don’t use honey but I couldn’t find an image without it in) .

If you remember last year , I was on gabapentin ? 

I was extremely ill and left to suffer as I couldn’t see a Dr .  

I had to pull myself off the meds and I was like a heroine addict . 

Sweats , headaches , shakes , the lot ! 

Not anymore ! 


I can choose when I need what now . 

I’m not reliant on the meds . I can go without them if needed . 

My anxiety and depression are low . 

Yes I still have my days but it’s not a daily struggle . 


I feel more like me now more than ever !


I’m not saying I’m cured . I’m not , yet . I’m still aching and I’m still trying to find the right dosage . I still can’t walk far and still need a walking stick . But I’m a million times better than what I was . 

Now the question is , if I can do all of this , with just those little things . What can I do with the big change ? Full on , 100% plant based life ? 

It’s going to take some time and some getting used to . It’s not an over night thing . 

But I am very curious . 

If I’m feeling better with the little things . Will I get cured with the big ? 

Another example .

After months of putting turmeric into all of my foods , I was in remission with my UC . 

The doctor was very surprised . 

He even asked me how .  I said , turmeric , his reply , 

‘Well I suppose it is a natural anti inflammatory , I think I’ll research this’ .


So there is some proof that plant based is better for us .  

I just wish I had figured this out years ago . Maybe I wouldn’t be in the place I am now ? Maybe I would be working as a theatre lighting technican *dream job* .

All I know is , I want to be mindful of what I put into my body .  I want to beat all of my illnesses and along the way , I want to try and help others too πŸ™‚ 

I hope this does help some of my readers and I’d love to hear if any of you have gone vegan and how you feel since you have made the change πŸ’œ

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Ulcerative Colitis and Weight Gain .

I have to state I am not a Doctor of any kind , but this is a recent subject I have found myself researching after a recent experience with a Gastro . 

It wasn’t a pleasant one .

To cut a long story short , I was told that I was obese (like I didn’t know) . But to add insult to injury , I was also told I shouldn’t be obese as “Ulcerative Colitis makes you lose weight , not put it on” .

Now I’ve struggled with my weight for the last 8 years , since being diagnosed with UC . I’ve been on liquid diets , teatox , raw vegan diets , you name it , I’ve done it . Including the gym 5 days a week for 2-3 hours a day ! I can lose a stone , but nothing more .

I explained all of this to the Gastro . He laughed . Told me to get running . So I went through all of my health issues and what the Neuro has advised me to do . He didn’t know what to say . Except that I need to stop over eating . 

That part got to me big style ! I eat a max of 800 calories a day . I always have because I can’t stomach anything more .

Needless to say he didn’t believe me and told me I need to be on 500 calories a day to see any benefit . The cheek of it ! 

So I’ve gone into , let’s say a stubborn mood since . 

As I am seeing him again on the 13th I want proof of what I consume etc a day . So I’m keeping a log of my caffeine , water and food intake . Along with my steps , sleep pattern , heart rate , blood pressure and glucose levels . 

I have also done some research . It took me a while to find it via Google so I decided to take a better approach . 

Like many sufferers , I join groups and forums . So instead of reading I asked the question directly and went on to explain my experience .  

So many people came forward with their experience with weight gain and UC . 

The way my gastro had explained it to me , it made me think I was the only obese person with UC ! But I’m not . 

Over the years I have been on numerous medications . I have also been on steroids . All of which have made myself and countless others gain weight . 

As you know , gaining weight is easy , the hard part is losing it . People of all ages have answered my question and they are all struggling with the same thing . 

Whilst UC does make you lose weight , the medications make you gain and gain . I stopped mine over a year ago and went natural . I now refuse to put any toxins / chemicals in my body . Although I can’t lose the weight …. yet , I am hopeful that I will . It does take time for the body to reset itself and start getting it’s rhythm back , I’m just hoping that’s soon so I can prove this ass of a doctor wrong !


I thought I would share this experience with you as I found it difficult to come across what I needed . I hope this helps a little for anyone in the same dilemma as me . 

If you want more information or just need to chat to another UC sufferer , please feel free to leave comments below .

Chronic illness and fatigue

If you suffer with chronic illness , you’ll know that owning an alarm clock is a waste of money . You’ll hear it going off , but it doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll wake up . 

You’ll also be very familiar with the snide remarks / “jokes” people make .

“I wish I had time to take a nap” .

“Everyone gets tired , you just have to push through it” .

Having chronic illnesses almost always means you don’t have a good , if any , sleep pattern . 

The usual 8 hours sleep everyone gets seems like heaven and you always hope that one day , you will get that glorious , golden 8 hours , of uninterrupted sleep for yourself . 

The thing is , no one truly understands it until they go through it themselves . I didn’t .  I’m 28 and 11 years ago I was your ‘normal’ , every day person who could get up and go . Party all night and work all day . Get a few hours sleep and I was raring to go again ! I never understood how people could be so slow or always sleeping or never go out . I loved life and nothing could hold me back . 

Then , I had my accident and life spiralled . I then started to understand why people couldn’t do things .

Normal everyday life is a chore . 

For me , I suffer with broken discs in my lower spine , hip and knee problems . (Along with so much more) . So from the minute I get up , I’m struggling . 

Getting dressed used to take minutes , now it’s 30 minutes or more . 

Bending , hurts . 

Getting up , hurts . 

Sitting down , hurts . 

I feel like I’m stuck in a 90 year olds body . 

The struggle is real – as they say . 

By the time I get downstairs I’m ready to go back to bed .

Making coffee is a chore but it’s so needed . Caffeine is about the only thing my body runs on these days . 

My normal routine …. I say routine , it’s more than likely that I …. Get up around 11am . Dressed and downstairs by 12pm . I have coffee by 12:15pm and then I sit down . I’ll try and get stuff done but every 15 minutes I need to sit . 

Come 5:30pm I . Am . Dropping . I normally go for a nap for a minimum of an hour and a half . It takes me between 30 and 45 minutes to settle and drop off . Then I’ll be waking up every 20 – 30 minutes . It takes around 10 minutes for me to drop back off to sleep . So I never get a full rest . This is why I can’t ‘power nap’ .

Then after my nap I’m normally awake until 4/5 am . I’ll sleep until 8am , waking every 20 – 30 minutes . Then I’ll be awake for an hour (8-9am) Then I usually nod off again until 11am . Always waking every 20-30 minutes . This is if I’m lucky to get sleep . Some nights , I’m awake all night . It all depends on the pain and if I can lie down etc . 

And I know I’m not the only one who suffers like this . My father is exactly the same as me . So I know I’m not alone when I say , it really is tough . 

So to have the usual sly remarks made , it’s no surprise when people get short with you .  

When you are basically called lazy . Oh how I wish it was true . Physical and mental exhaustion is no joke . 

Or when you’re told it’s just a bad day . Or you’ll get over it …. Please , show us how ? Teach us how chronic pain can be cured with a flick of a switch . 

And when people make fun of you . Now this is where people can get really petty . When they see you struggling and just think it’s hilarious and that you’re doing it for attention . I would absolutely love to watch you walk in our shoes for just one day . 

So please , be kind people . It takes zero effort to just be nice to someone . To try and understand it . I mean , you wouldn’t like someone to make a joke about your bad day would you ? So why would you do it to others ? 

Think before you judge . 

Chronic illness is tough . I have tried a lot of medication to help me , none of which have . It can take years to find the right thing , so far for me it’s taken 10 years , and I’m still trying . 

I’m now looking into natural pain relief and foods that help . 

Kindness .

I have been absent due to many reasons lately , to which I apologise . 

However , one of the reasons is that I’m busy . 

I’ve been going through one hell of a lot with my health and I found I started to spiral with my mental health , so I decided to do something positive . 

If you have read my blogs in the past , you would know I have a charity which I hold close to my heart . 

Many Tears Animal Rescue . 

They have been struggling lately for money due to their food supplier not being able to donate anymore . So all of their money is being stretched out over many things . One major thing being life saving operations . 

They have asked for help on their Facebook page :  https://www.facebook.com/manytearsrescue/

So I have decided to start up a Facebook page of my own , with raffles to help get some pennies for them . 

https://www.facebook.com/groups/395115930823972/

On the page is the go fund me link which I also set up for them πŸ™‚ 

https://www.gofundme.com/wp2arwjs-help-many-tears-animal-rescue

Every penny I raise will go to them . 

If you enter the raffles and live in the UK, I will post the prize to you (if you don’t live near) and the money will come out of my own pocket πŸ™‚ 

Doing something good has really helped me cope better with what I am going through . 

Since losing Ellie back in 2015 , I have chosen to help this charity because of their amazing work . They do so much for the animals . All staff work on minimum wage and never ask for a penny more . They even put their hard earned cash back in to the rescue to help the animals . Cleaning products etc . 


If you could please take some time to have a look , donate / share either this blog , the links or just the go fund me page . I would be extremely great-full . 


Thank you all so far for your support πŸ’œπŸ’œ

Good riddance 2016

Thank God for that . 2016 is over . 

Not that I’m expecting 2017 to be my year or anything . But last year was filled with so much death . 

It started in June 2015 with my partners Gran and then my dog . And then 2016 hit and so many famous people started dropping . Over 80 celebrity deaths . Most being my idols , especially Carrie Fisher , that one really got to me at the end of the year . 

Not to mention my friends who passed away suddenly, both aged 28 .

I normally love Christmas and am like a massive child . But this year, it didn’t seem right . 

All my Dec’s went up . Time spent with family . Music , alcohol , cake etc . But I couldn’t help but feel this massive void . 2016 felt like it left me a shell . Emotionally, I had been so up and down that I think I was exhausted come the end . 

Don’t get me wrong , I appreciate all the amazing gifts and time spent with loved ones . I was truly spoiled again this year . I am just emotionally exhausted .

That’s one thing I can say though , I have slept through the holidays . Been going to bed super late and staying in bed to catch up on sleep too . 

I didn’t celebrate 2017 . I had tea in my pajamas and sat and watched TV with Rob all night . 

One thing I can say though . I am happy 2016 is over . I am ready to move forward from all of that rubbish . It didn’t make me stronger , it beat me black and blue . But it made me thankful for the time I have been on this earth and for the time I have left . Be it a day , year or seventy years . I am thankful . 

So with that said , thank you 2016 and goodbye . Please 2017 , do not be a copy cat ! 

The waiting game….

Had my colonoscopy on Monday . 

Ouch!!

I’m not going to lie , it was horrific . 

I had to have gas and air and pre med . I was still screaming in pain . It really really hurt . 

Naturally I am pale , but I came out of there looking like a ghost . I was white !! 

They couldn’t find a vein to put my canola in .  When they did it spurted everywhere .  Eventually my consultant got it in one go . 

I somehow convinced my consultant that I’m rich because we were all talking tattoos . He asked what I did for a living and I said nothing . To which he smiled and I didn’t correct him haha . It’s not a bad thing right ? It’s better than him thinking I’m a bum or something haha . 

I brought up about the laxatives though . They all agreed that something needs of be done about it . They have had loads of complaints !!

Back to the op . My Ulcerative Colitis wasn’t flared up which was good , but they found something they didn’t like so they’ve taken 10 biopsies and I should have the results in 1 to 2 weeks with a follow up app in 3 to 4 weeks .  I can phone to get the results before the app though , which is great . I hate waiting . 

The things they found could be anything though . From food intolerance to the major stuff I don’t want to think about . 

As I feel unwell daily it could be anything . Although , I do want tests done to see what I am allergic to as every time I eat my stomach hurts . It stretches and I have stretch marks because of it . So hopefully the results will confirm that and I can get referred for further tests and sort that out . Here’s hoping anyways . 
I hope I haven’t scared anyone with these blogs though . I have had 2 colonoscopies before this one and they didn’t hurt . They were uncomfortable but not painful . I don’t know what was different this time , but it was horrendous .  I highly recommend pain relief of all kinds haha . Although I did refuse the high end pain relief as I wanted to leave asap afterwards to see my friend who is in hospital .  I ended up missing the time slots though …. If I had known , I would have had all the pain relief going …. Not happy .  But I’m extremely glad I got it out of the way . 

Now all I have to do is get over the allergic reaction . lol . Yeah . My body has decided to be a jerk . We assume it’s a reaction to the meds . Although I am better tonight , I have been suffering with flu like symptoms . Shakes and feeling cold came first , then yesterday I was sneezing like crazy and my face was puffy , which only ever happens when I’m allergic to something . Today I’ve just felt like jelly . Wobbling all over the place . I’m also off food although I’m trying my best to eat . 

It really is worth it though πŸ™‚ At least in a few weeks I will know what is up with that area of my body and I can fix it . 

I will keep everyone updated .

Going for a colonoscopy .

Tomorrow is the day I go for a colonoscopy .  I’m nervous as expected .  My anxiety is high and I feel weak . 

I’m anemic and have to starve myself for 24 hours . I also have eating problems . I struggle to eat more than one meal and I struggle to eat before 4pm . 

I had to have food before 1pm . I made scrambled eggs on white toast .  I can’t eat white bread but you aren’t allowed anything else . So had no choice . I’ve been feeling ill ever since . Shakes and feeling super sick . 

I started the prep (moviprep) at 7pm . It’s foul . Smells of lemon and tastes like salt . Making me feel even worse . 

I am drinking plenty of water because of it though . Which is a plus !

Honestly , think this is the worst part of the op though . The colonoscopy itself doesn’t last very long and it isn’t painful . Slightly uncomfortable but not painful . (I’ve had 2 before) .

It’s not even the not eating part that gets to me or the effects of moviprep , it’s the anemia and the shakes .  The feeling sick and not being able to do anything about it . 

Normally eating something sugary helps , but I can’t touch anything now until after my colonoscopy at 2pm tomorrow .

I keep thinking that it’s worth it .  To see what’s going on inside . But the shakes really make me think otherwise .  

The bonus of it all for me though , is that I get a Costa after it all haha . I have warned my parents – as they’re taking me – that we will be sitting in there eating and drinking ! I swear I’m addicted ….

Well , that’s my little update for now . I will let you know how it all goes tomorrow , and how amazing the Costa was πŸ˜›