I apologise once again for taking such a long break from blogging .
I’ve been through one heck of an emotional rollercoaster .
Not only has my health decided to decline (again) but I have lost 2 amazing friends .
It’s amazing how quickly life flickers before our eyes . One minute someone is there and the next , they’re gone . Both my friends , Darren and Ian , I had been speaking to the night before they left us .
Darren passed barely a week before Ian . Both came as a massive shock .
I was speaking with Darren two nights before . He had seen a man get stabbed and we were talking about getting some flowers to him in the hospital and sending love to the man’s family . Darren was really worried about him .
Then , just the night after , he said he couldn’t sleep so I sent him some love .
Myself and Darren met through school . He went to the school just next door to mine . We have a lot of friends in common .
We remaind big friends through college . Always hanging out ! He was friends with a guy I dated and we were the inseparable trio .
After college , life got harder for us all .
My , now ex , is married and has a child , my health declined and limited me from going places and Darren , he was in an even worse boat .
Darren was born with health issues and needed transplants . He was on the list and friends were even getting tested to see if they could help him .
The night before I heard about his passing , we were planning to go for coffee and have a catch up . But that day never came .
Hours after speaking with him , he passed away . Surrounded by family and loved ones .
Devastated isn’t the word .
Darren was one of my dearest friends . He’s always had a fond place in my heart , always will .
Whilst dealing with this awful news . Merely days later , more awful news came . This was a huge shock .
My friend , Ian , passed away .
Myself and Ian became friendly through college . We partied every Thursday night and had the wildest and best nights out . He was always kind , loving and caring . My BFG .
BFG was very fitting . Ian was 6 foot something . Insanely tall . Skinny and gave THE best hugs . When I told him he made me feel tiny , he started to pick me up . I remember him asking me if I was scared being so high up during a cuddle . I just smiled and squished him back . Ian never failed to make me happy .
Ian was the kind of guy who would always make time for you . He’d listen and help you out the best that he could . Come the end of the conversation you’d be walking away smiling from ear to ear .
The night before he passed I congratulated him as he had just started Uni . 2016 really did seem like the year for him . He had just gotten engaged to a lovely lady , he moved to Cardiff and started Uni . His life truly was on the up .
The news came as such a shock as he had no known health issues .
He passed away from a heart attack . The cause is unknown . He was with his fiancé walking the campus and next minute , he was gone . That’s what I’ve been told anyway .
Honestly , we all can’t get our heads around it .
I attended 2 funerals in one week . Both of close friends . Both my age . Heartbreaking isn’t the word .
I miss them both dearly .