A little update

Hi everyone . Sorry I’ve been a bit quiet as of late . Myself and Rob have been super duper busy sorting a few things out .
We do have a big announcement coming soon . Well , I say big , it’s massive for us πŸ˜€
At the moment , only close family know , but I will update as soon as I can about it .

So as you can guess , I am extremely excited πŸ˜€

My mood has picked up , although I do get a few lows from day to day . But having something to look forward to , is helping !

Still missing Ellie .
We haven’t got another dog yet . Never say never though !
We all miss Ellie too much and I think we are confused . We can’t replace her and our hearts are aching for her . But yet we are all feeling lonely and there’s a massive hole in our family .
So I can see us having another dog in the near future πŸ™‚

As my mood has picked up , I have been going to Rob’s gigs.
We went to one last night in The Lemon Factory , Swansea .
It was the best gig yet !
They started a mosh pit from no where lol
Everyone enjoyed !!
The crowd was amazing & the other bands were too !!

I have never felt so comfortable at a gig πŸ™‚
They were all really friendly & a little bit crazy haha
Safe to say , I fitted in well πŸ˜‰

So to sum everything up .
I’m feeling good .
I’m getting through each day and I’m excited for our future πŸ™‚
The lows are still there but at the moment I can cope with them .
Right now , I’m not letting anyone bring me down πŸ™‚

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Carnival

I made it to the carnival on Saturday πŸ˜€
It was ‘Kidwelly 900’ . So a very special Carnival πŸ™‚

Everyone who took part looked amazing !!
You could tell a lot of time and effort had been put in this year πŸ™‚

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People of all ages joined in .
It was great ! I’m really glad I made it out for it, as it has lifted my spirits .

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My nieces & Brookie really enjoyed themselves too !!

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My fiancΓ© treated me to some lovely jewelery from one of the stalls .

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We won a lot of prizes for the kids .
Spent a fortune & were very tempted to buy a wood carving for the garden , but had no way of getting it home as no one brought a car XD

My brother had his stall there too .
Kidwelly Tyre Centre .
He had a few cars on display , did a FREE kids raffle & an adults raffle .
There were a lot of people who stopped by to say hi too .

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Amongst all of that entertainment there was also an air show ! It was spectacular !
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We spent hours in the park . I did about 5000 steps ! For me that’s like walking 100 miles …. My body was aching like crazy at this point . I couldn’t walk home . So myself , fiancΓ© & sister in law , decided we were going to the pub !
We took the kids with us for food , the rest of us had a pint or two .

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We had a really , really good day !

I needed this weekend . It got me out and kept me going .
The sun was shining for once too πŸ˜† 🌞

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Bring on next year !!
Who knows , we may even be taking part 😊

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Waking up mid sleep gasping for breath

So for the past 4 weeks I have been waking up mid sleep feeling like I can’t breath and gasping for breath .
As you can imagine I am very panicy when this happens .
I feel like I can’t get enough air into my body .

Does anyone else get this ?

It doesn’t happen every night , more like twice a week .
I am going to see the doctor tomorrow about it . It is scaring me quite a bit because it almost feels like I am drowning .

I am exhausted through it as I can’t seem to get a decent nights sleep .

“No body likes me”

Having those silly little thoughts again today .
Walking through a local shop . People saying Hello to me and smiling . But I can’t help by feel alone .
Just felt like everyone hates me and I wanted to get out of there so quickly .

I know it’s me and my anxiety being silly . But I can’t help it and in the moment you believe every single word in your head .

Just glad to be back home . No more shopping for me for a while πŸ˜•